I wrote this a few days ago … on a good day
Every once in a while, I’m blessed with a good day. A day where somehow I allow myself to enjoy the good. To enjoy life. Don’t get me wrong, I know the good is there all of the time. I can see it. Heck, I live it. I just can’t feel it a lot of the time.
Why can’t everyday be a good day?
Why? I really don’t know. I’m still working on that one. From what I’ve discovered so far in therapy… it has something to do with feeling undeserving. It’s one of those “Negative Core Beliefs.” But on days like today, I can see the possibilities. I can live in and relish the moment.
What makes today different ?
Today i feel like I can let go of the past. Finally, I can let go of that weight that just holds me down. I wish I could describe how different this feels. I wish I could feel this way all of the time, Sadly, I know this feeling won’t last. That is something I’m still working on.
Why did I get blessed with today?
Honestly, I don’t know why I get days like today. Maybe it’s just to show me what is possible, what I am working towards. Hope. Hope is important because cause some days the “battle” are hard. Some days, it’s hard not to give up. Not today. Today is a good day.
Creating a Joy
I am awake super early and full of energy. I can’t wait to tackle the day with my kiddos! As soon as I finish this I’m going to go downstairs and prep for our school day. Yesterday we started reading The Little House on The Prairie series together (out loud).
I actually REALLY enjoyed it and I’m already envisioning the cool projects and adventures we can incorporate into our curriculum. Camping, cooking, building things from scratch. All of which will be technology free! Yeek I’m so excited!
See, today is different. Today gives me hope for tomorrow. Why am I writing this? I feel so silly. I know I’m rambling because my thoughts are going a million miles an hour. But I think it’s important. I really don’t know if it makes any sense but I feel compelled to share. Anyway, guys hope you are all having a great day! Or at least, don’t forget to create those 5 minutes of joy.
